imagined life

Not the examined, I wanted the one that imagined well. Flowers, with their rights to be seen as flowers. Night sky, with its right to be a night sky. Nothing more. No, humanity cannot do that, we want to see more than what we see. I do not know whether I am part of that ‘we’ anymore.

I want to look at things without adding meanings. I want to be human, not beautiful or ugly. Not a poor or rich… Not successful or unsuccessful. Just a human.

And I am a human if you ask the stars above. They wouldn’t know how to judge me with other things about me. I would be only a human. Their world is not the one that makes sense, because they do not need to make any sense. They exist without senses. Such a privilege, being excused from suffering.

I am trying to understand myself, why I don’t like to be seen as beautiful first. The answer is becoming clear sometimes. Because deep in my heart I believe that being human should come first! I do not like the fact that people started to use ‘being beautiful’ and ‘being sexy’ interchangeably. Everyone should be sexy too I do not have any problem with that, but when you compliment women for the sake of letting them know that they are beautiful, it is never about beauty itself, it is about ‘look you are sexy and it comes first’. I do not like this attitude and I know I cannot control the world, but I can choose how to reach the things around me. It is how I see things, and I am not trying to convince anyone. I am just longing for my imagined world.

My world: it is first beautiful and then sexy. It is about humans and how they feel first. Kind and intelligent at the same time. Humans do not kill each other there. They die because of normal causes, not competition and wars. They age together and enjoy the sunsets and sunrises of each season. They drink their wines while watching the sea every night. When they feel bad, they cry in each other’s arms. No one thinks that crying is bad there, no one thinks that being successful is about money. It is never about being ‘better’ than others. They do not compete about who is the most emotional one there. Cooperation finally won the game against the competition. No one tries to prove themselves for the sake of proving themselves. They really do what they really want to do. They still do live together and care about what other people think about they are also brave enough to do what they want to do. They know that no one will judge them, instead, they will encourage them no matter what. It is about trying to be happy in this life because we have one chance, and in my world, no one tries to ruin that chance. Everyone knows how to accept love from others. They also love themselves very much. They think that being fragile and emotional is the most beautiful thing ever. It is the real achievement in this universe. My world knows.